Tuesday, February 28, 2012


It has been a tough day overall.  My schooling is in its last week of my eight week semester, and it's been rough.  My daughter has her big meeting with her therapists tomorrow.  We have preschools to tour and another home study visit to complete.

In the midst of this, some of the Little Dude's (that's what we're calling him for now!) medical paperwork is more complicated than we realized.  We now have to learn all we can and decide if this is truly the right road for our family to take.  I tend to think yes, or frankly I would probably delete this blog entirely.  I guess I am just saying that it is scary, and any prayers you can send, would be most appreciated. 

"For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you." (Isaiah 41:13)

Little Dude is in such a terrible, scary, awful place.  No orphanage is really much good, but his is particularly terrible.  We have come to call it The Bad Place.  At The Bad Place, they sometimes starve children. At The Bad Place, children die.  Little Dude is there.  We do not want him to be.  We do not want any Little Dudes to be there. 

A lovely woman is raising awareness about The Bad Place.  Please read about it here:

Our Little Dude is in That Bad Place.  This is what crushes my heart. Yet I worry about what medical problems may lie ahead.  We already have an adorable little girl with special needs, and we would not want to harm her, either.  I know we will make the right decisions, but it is a scary, unsure time right now as we hope to hear more about Little Dude and pray about our future. 

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid". (John 14:27)

Tonight, I pray that Little Dude and every little one who lives in The Bad Place is blessed with peace as more parents come forward to raise these little ones and give them the homes they deserve.


  1. The uncertainty you are feeling is definitely normal. My little girl came from that same orphanage originally. She spent 2.5 years there. Then was transferred. She has been home 3 months now and doing fantastic! You can always as the NGO for more info from the orphanage to help make a decision if necessary. I wish you all the best. Stephanie.

  2. Praying for you! Not an easy decision to make. If he is not obviously terribly unwell, the Bad Place has one particular floor that is "terrible awful" and the others are "only" not good. One thing is for sure - getting him out of there will be good for him!!!!

  3. Praying! We recently had to make this same very hard decision, keeping in mind everything we already had on our plate...we just didn't have the peace to move forward. That next day, God showed us our son whom we are in the process of committing to. I'm not saying you should back out-only just that I understand completely that overwhelming feeling & uncertainty and the love you already feel for "Little Dude". He's adorable! Praying for God's direction and complete peace!


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